Are you a good person?

Yesterday there's another one of those dreaded block meetings. Now don't get me wrong, this block meeting was unlike other block meetings. Why? Oh, right. Cause we're in KOSASS...

SO anyway, I didn't go coz i has fever, but i can hear every single thing. The head barking at every junior, telling them that they're ungrateful, they did him wrong, blah dee dah dee dah. Like we never heard that before.

Listening to the shouts from the seniors, I felt this hate grow inside of me, and silently, helplessly in my bed, I clenched my teeth and balled my fists, the very same way I did when I first enetered this dreaded place. Then I remembered something.

This is all an act. How could I forget that? The screaming, yelling head, the seniors sneering so disgustingly - all an act. I've known them outside these meetings, and they're nice people. They're not the annoyingly noisy faggots I heard just now. They're just people.

Which brings me back to matriculation. In my class there're guys who act tough and made fun of everybody, including me. Well, me being of quite frequent. But that's only in class, and even then when they're together. Outside of class, they're just friends with me. Not the jerks in class.

And just today I saw a murder case suspect in the papers. His face is all swollen and one of his eyes are bruised. My friend said that it was probably the cops beating the hell out of him while he's in the lock-up. Really, even though there was the probability that he did kill his family members, he probably didn't mean to do that. And the police wasn't bad either, bacause they were confused. They thought they were doing something right. Or maybe they had to beat him up to look good.

Anyway, from everything I've seen so far, I have yet to see a person who was bad to his/her very core. People I've met so far is actually good, no matter how bad others see them as. I, myself, had missed that fact a few times (KOSASS is full of annoying creeps lol).

People are mostly afraid. They are afraid of looking weak, and so they hurt others to look stronger. They lie to each other because they are afraid somebody, maybe themselves may get in trouble. They kill people for a reason.

Everybody is a saint inside.